“Every time I’ve felt super vulnerable and unprepared.”
Obviously, a day at the beach isn’t too fun with photographers documenting your every move — and she shared some thoughts on how the experience made her feel in a lengthy statement on Twitter.
Camila wrote that she’d been “papped” at that Miami beach area before: “[E]very time I’ve felt super vulnerable and unprepared — I’ve worn bikinis that were [too] small and paid no mind to how I looked, then saw pictures online and comments and been so upset.”
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She continued, “I reminded myself when it impacted my [self-]esteem that I was thinking the culture’s thoughts and not my own. A culture who has gotten so used to an image of what a ‘healthy’ woman’s body looks like that is completely not real for a lot of women.”
Camila also said that she anticipated that paparazzi might be at the beach this time around, and felt the need to prepare herself for that possibility.
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“Today I got a new bikini, a whole fuckin cute outfit, put lip gloss on, and didn’t eat anything too heavy before going in the OCEAN cause I knew it was gonna be basically a whole photoshoot.”
She added, “I held my core so tight my abs hurt and didn’t breathe and barely smiled and was so self conscious of where the paps were the whole time I couldn’t let go and relax and do what we’re meant to do when we go out into nature.”
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She also said, “I knew I looked ‘good’ in the pictures and thought I would feel accomplished and yet Ive never had a worse time at the beach.”
Camilla said she wanted to share her experience “because we see pictures of women and praise them for looking good, for looking fit or ‘healthy’, but what is health if you are so fixated on what your body looks like that your mental health suffers and you can’t enjoy your life?”
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“Who am I trying to look attractive for and am I even attractive to myself if I can’t let loose and relax and have fun and be playful on a beautiful day at the beach?”
Camila also shared a photo of her apparently in the “Pool area” of where she was staying, “where hopefully they can’t get me but they literally hide in the bushes sometimes Im exhausted lol.”
Read her entire message here.