Mark Hoppus didn’t take Blink-182’s breakup lightly.
The 53-year-old musician revealed in his new memoir, “Fahrenheit-182,” that he had suicidal thoughts when the band broke up in 2005.
“When Blink fell apart, I lost everything. I lost my direction, I lost my confidence, I lost my sense of self,” Hoppus wrote, according to People.
“I didn’t know what I was supposed to do or who I was supposed to be. I’d hear one of our songs playing in a store and have to walk out,” he recalled. “I sank lower and lower. I could tell I was near the bottom when I started finding comfort in the thought of suicide: If it gets bad enough, I can always just kill myself.”
After over 10 years as a group, guitarist Tom DeLonge exited Blink-182 over rising tensions with Hoppus and drummer Travis Barker.
The split caused Hopper to spiral and contemplate taking his own life, but eventually he took matters into his own hands to help himself.
“I started talking to a psychiatrist who put me on medications, which helped a lot,” he shared. “It let me take a breath. It allowed me the space in my own head to say, ‘You’re being a d–k, Mark. Knock it off.’”
While DeLonge formed his own band called Angels & Airwaves, Hoppus and Barker created +44. But come 2009, Blink-182 reunited and the trio released their album “Neighborhood” two years later.
DeLonge quit the band for a second time in 2015, but rejoined again in 2023.
In his memoir, Hoppus also opened up about his childhood before fame and his public battle with cancer in 2021.
The “All the Small Things” singer previously said that he contemplated suicide after he was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma.
“I was in our living room crying and telling my wife [Skye Hoppus], ‘I don’t know if I can do this,’” he told People in 2022. “She was like, ‘Well, what are you going to do, kill yourself?’ And that’s exactly what I was thinking. It was pretty dark.”
Hoppus said that his wife helped him overcome his dark thoughts at the time. He eventually announced he was cancer-free in September 2021.
Speaking to The Guardian while promoting his memoir, Hoppus recalled that he “really thought I was going to die” during his difficult chemotherapy treatment.
“And, in a way, it absolutely was so freeing,” he admitted. “I’d spent my whole life hypervigilant, thinking: what’s the worst thing that could happen? And, oh, it’s here now, I’m dealing with it and it still sucks.”
“The physical pain and exhaustion of the chemo, mixed with the steroids and all the other drugs, just crushed me for months on end,” Hoppus continued, adding that his cancer battle actually “healed” his friendship with DeLonge.
“It brought back friendships that I hadn’t had in years. From day one, [DeLonge] was like: ‘What do you need? I’m there,’” Hoppus recalled. “In that friendship and the love and support of people around me, I thought: you know what? I’ve had a pretty awesome life.”
Blink-182 announced on Tuesday their 2025 US tour “Missionary Impossible.”
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